Listen

People always listen when I speak

But maybe they’re too blind to see

The true meaning behinds the words

Their ignorance perpetuates a curse

maybe it’s better if they don’t understand

Maybe it’s better if I just wait for shots to land

Or hope the same people that want to kill me for fun

Decide to offer me a hand?

It’s just wishful thinking

While my boat keeps on sinking

As I sing, lie, and carouse

I plummet closer towards the ground

The grave already been dug

Guess that’s the true cost of love

Slowly approaching a future

That only ends in suffering

I don’t want to die

But I’ve never had much hope for a life

I didn’t do anything to deserve this

Its just the nature of humanities purposelessness

So I don’t ask myself why,

I don’t lay back and cry,

I just wait for them to come

While I keep my brain unplugged

I’ve always been a chameleon

Coating myself in the same armor others wear

bullets don’t regard how you color your hair

When they creep up behind you and you don’t realize you’re already snared

I saw the signs 100 times, but I prefer to stick to proof

So when hundreds of fake accounts added my friends I played it cool

But now I see there was something more sinister in tow

And I walk the line between a life of violence and death row

I guess I’d rather live if I was part of someone’s clique

But all alone inside my home I know the icebergs gotta tip

And when I dream it’s of what comes after life

It fun to muse but in the end I know that’s it’s just darkness and nothing