So I guess that I’ll just smoke another cigarette
Petrified by the loss that paints the walls of my mind
So I guess that I’ll just move onward with my prophecy
A self defeating one that one that points out all the things that I won’t find
Like a love that’s thats equal and grows
Like true happiness
Like keeping all my limbs and
Avoiding that which hides in the unknown
Some say that there’s a reason for everything?
Then what’s the reason for all of this suffering?
Why can’t I seem to stop the spiraling
am I destined to die with nothing but this void in my mind?
I can’t wait much longer before the cracks split wide
Half the people I know can’t tell I’m dying on the inside
They can’t see that I’m drowning from everything
They don’t get it’s impossible to fight the tide
My heart still swells when I think of you
Push me away there’s nothing really more that I can do
Yet I hold onto to the hope from the lines between
Because I’m an idiot with low self esteem
And I might die before I really get to know you
And I might die before I have the chance to see you again
And I might crash like the pillars in Ancient Greece
Would it even make a difference to you